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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2005|06:00 pm]
[mood |jubilantjubilant]

Hey guys I hope everything is going well. Great news for me Amy and Laura are going to come visit me on August 2nd and 3rd so that will be fun. A nice sleepover at my house. I had a belated bday party last weekend it was alot of fun. I got a B in microbiology, which is what I was hoping for. Overall my summer is going allright. I am kind of looking forward to going back to school, but then i'm also not. I just have a really really tough semester scheduled so I definately won't be having too much free time or fun this academic year. One thing thats going to be nice is having a car. I can finally go to temple at least a few times every month. Maybe I should even think about volunteering there. Although,there are not many Indians in Wisconsin, I want to know at least some of those that are there. Can anyone tell me how I can post pictures on my livejournal? I want to put a couple up of my party.
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(no subject) [Jun. 11th, 2005|07:29 pm]
[mood |nostalgicnostalgic]

Hey everyone I hope everyone's summer is going well so far. Mine is alright! So far i'm babysitting for my neighbors kid and also taking a microbiology class which will be done by the first week of July. Its definately a tough course especially since it is only five weeks. My neighbor is going to get me a job at Nordstrom's in July during their sale so I could probably get a little money saved up for school and everything. I might possibly go to India in the first week of August and stay there till the 29th. It will be nice to go back because I haven't been there in a while. My bday is tomarrow so far the bday week wasn't so great and I think thats how is been for most of my teenage life. Well at least I can't be called a teenager anymore. Then again 20 is not so great cause you really can't do anything different you just get older. 21 however will be alot of fun, well at least for a while. I don't even feel like tomarrow is my birthday i'm just kinda in a whatever mood. I don't really have anything planned tomarrow either it kinda sucks my parents will probably just take me out to dinner, and I could probably do something with my friends, but i'm not really in the mood. Today I was training as a volunteer in the hospital on the oncology unit and it was pretty nice, but just seeing the patients made me feel really bad for them. I mean theres just so much we take for granted. I can drive a car go outside without fear of getting sick, just imagine being stuck inside all day, being drugged up and eating nasty hospital food. Theres some patients without anyone with them and thats really lonely. I mean sometimes I think I have it bad until I see them. It really makes you appreciate being healthy and independent. I think what I really want is some attention from Hari on my bday but he hasn't even called this weekend of my bday he'll probably call me on my bday to wish me a happy bday, but its just not enough I wish he were here. I don't think i'm going to be seeing him soon at all. I personally don't think its going to work out between us theres just too many factors separating us. Oh well life goes on.
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(no subject) [May. 13th, 2005|03:02 pm]
Omg I'm soooo freakin happy!!! I hesitantly looked on the carroll website for my grades. The reason why I felt that way is because I knew that the last time I checked my nursing grade I was on a borderline C and I mean really borderline. I knew I worked hard in that class, but I just felt like nothing was paying off. Neither tests or quizzes were showing very much hope. I mean I studied, I went to class and lab and in addition I also practiced outside of mandatory lab hours. I just didn't know what more I could do to pass the class. I was depressed that whole semester about grades I just felt like all my hard work was worth nothing. I saw other classmates who were not working very hard or even worried about the class. My teacher would answer my questions very ambigiously and when the teacher would ask me a question I wouldn't answer the question they way that she wanted to. So I didn't feel like I was on the teacher's goodside either. On top of this one class that I was having a hard time with I had two other courses and three labs. I don't even know how I survived all that. Well I finally got my grades and I got two ABs one for biochem and one for physiology and a C in Nursing and DAMN proud of it too!!!!!! Wow I was really dreading this day, but now that I know the truth i'm really really happy. More happy than i've been this whole semester. On the downside my GPA is still a 3.1 oh well hopefully someday I can get that up.
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Home sweet Home [May. 3rd, 2005|09:04 pm]
Hey everyone!

I hope everyone did well or are going to do well on their finals! Today was hectic after finals I had to pack or my other crap and when me and my dad were driving he was nearly falling asleep at the wheel. I can't wait till I get the car, I offered to drive, but he's too much of a man to let a woman drive (rolls eyes). Oh well at least I came home alive thats all I really wanted. I seriously have to take a science class this summer because if I don't then I have to take 18 credits next year along with a lab and I will go absolutely crazy. I love being at home, my house is so beautiful in the spring and fall the grass is so green and the trees have leaves. When I came home today my mom made us a beautiful indian dinner. It was awesome, I was really touched. My mom lost alot of wait the poor thing got sick. My grandma sent us some saris and one especially for me its absolutely gorgeous i'm hoping to wear it for my birthday/housewarming party in June. I wish I had my digital camera so I can show it to you guys its awesome. Well i'll probably just take pictures and scan them for you guys so you can see it. My grandma also bought some cute bangles for me they are awesome I love my grandma. I miss you all already have a great summer guys and keep me updated on events. I'll keep in contact with you all!Bye!


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(no subject) [Apr. 20th, 2005|12:03 am]
Hey everyone!

I'm a bit more calm and relaxed after the get together monday night with all the pals. I'm less stressed out about Hari, which is really good. I have finals and nursing EXPO to pay attention to I figure those things come once in a semester guys are always there. I'm just gonna focus on school now and sort the mess out later. I feel better, but i'm nervous about passing EXPO and clincals next semester. I'll let you guys know how I do, hopefully it won't be depressing or bad. Wish me luck and pray for me!
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(no subject) [Apr. 8th, 2005|08:00 pm]
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[music |Fallin by Alicia Keys]

I don't understand guys!!! What the hell is it just me or am I being ignored thats my major question. Everytime I tell Hari I feel ignored or unloved he's just like "don't start". I'm trying to be understanding and give him time to do what he needs to do, but I'm only human. I'm a girl and I have needs like a little attention from my BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!! Is that alot to ask for? I feel like i'm in the twighlight zone.GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! Guys suck! I don't understand because I know for a fact that i'm a good girlfriend because i don't call him every five mins wanting to know where he's at. I definately don't mind that he's with work or whatever, but I ask myself how long I can put up with this. Sometimes I want to just run away and forget about every aspect of him, because on top of school he frustrates me also. I don't know what to do? I just want to run away from everything. I'm so stressed!!! Only god can help me get through this. I dont' like dating at all i'm tempted to just get an arranged marriage later in life because dating is a big headache for me. I think if I ever breakup with Hari I will seriously look into it because I know for sure I want to someday get married and have kids. I'm really sick of dating guys, because they are not very persistent, they like burn out towards the end or lose interest. I just dont understand them. Maybe l'll just be one of those old ladies that never get married or have kids. Well I don't know but WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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(no subject) [Feb. 27th, 2005|11:41 pm]
Sorry if I offend anyone but I need to bash men for a second and Yes I know there are nice guys out there but I just need a little cheering up.

The only good men are dating each other. -- Unknown

If men could menstruate ... clearly, menstruation would become an enviable, boast-worthy, masculine event: Men would brag about how long and how much.... Sanitary supplies would be federally funded and free. Of course, some men would still pay for the prestige of such commercial brands as Paul Newman Tampons, Muhammed Ali’s Rope-a-Dope Pads, John Wayne Maxi Pads, and Joe Namath Jock Shields —”For Those Light Bachelor Days.” -- Gloria Steinem

Men have one advantage in life, they can pee on a tree. -- Irene

Men never do anything right, and if they do something right, they'll never do it again. -- Unknown

Dear Lord, I pray for wisdom to understand my man; Love to forgive him; And patience for his moods; Because Lord, if I pray for strength I'll beat him to death. Amen

Men are full of a lot of things, excuses being high on the totem poll

No man is worth your tears and the one that is, won't make you cry

Back to the predictable and humdrum, the prince will never come and sleeping beauty is dead. -- Queen of the Damned (The book, not the movie)

What men fear most is ending up in the wrong profession; what women fear most is ending up with the wrong man. -- Chinese Proverb

No matter how good he looks, some girl out there is sick and tired of his bullshit. -- Unknown
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I just don't understand men! [Feb. 27th, 2005|10:52 pm]
[mood |angryangry]
[music |"Landslide" Dixie Chicks]

So I get back to my room tonight at 10ish after trying to study for nursing and biochem in the library. I figured i should call Hari since i'm gonna be working at 10:30. So I called him and asked him why he dosent return my calls. So he was busy I accept that. When we do get to talk however he barely says anything and I'm usually the person who intiates a conversation. So he gives me this excuse about having his brother around while he's talking to me, so he can't "talk to you freely". I told him I don't understand what he's trying to say, I mean its not like we talk that much anyway and when we do talk he can't talk to me freely because his brother is around. I really just don't understand, can anyone clear this up for me? I mean I talk to him sometimes in front of my parents, and when my parents know about him I'm sure I still will talk to him infront of them. I mean i'm going through a tough semester right now and I wish he could be one of those supporting boyfriends. I know he is busy alot and I understand and support him completely. But what the hell more does he want from me? This was one of my worst fears, this was a problem in my first relationship "the communication problem". I just can't tolerate it! When he lost his job, I was totally there for him and I supported him. I am a good girlfriend, I admit my mistakes and try to make them better and I try to be as compassionate and caring as possible. I'm giving this relationship a 110%. I just don't feel like i'm getting it back in return. What do u guys think about this and what do you think I should do? I just don't know anymore i'm depressed and confused. I just want to bundle up in my bed and cry!
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Beauty of Nursing! [Feb. 25th, 2005|06:11 pm]
[music |Angel]

Some inspirations quotes about Nursing!

"...the character of the nurse is as important as the knowledge she possesses."

~Jarvis, 1996

"Caring is the essence of nursing."
~Leninger, 1984

· Nurses prayer: Lord bless me with a gentle touch and caring heart.
· Dear Nurse, your loving care and gentle touch has made a difference. Thank you!

10. Pays better than McDonald´s (though the hours aren´t as good.)
9. Fashionable shoes and sexy nurses uniforms.
8. Needles: ´tis better to give than to receive.
7. Confidence in reassuring patients that all bleeding stops ... eventually.
6. Opportunity to expose yourself to rare, exotic, and exciting new diseases.
5. Interesting aromas.
4. Courteous and infallible doctors who always leave clear orders in perfectly clear handwriting.
2. Celebration of holidays with all your friends ... at work.
1. Comfort in the knowledge that most of your patients survive no matter what you do to them.
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(no subject) [Feb. 22nd, 2005|12:58 am]
[mood |disappointeddisappointed]
[music |Uninvited by Alanis]

Silent stranger you seek what you are not

Cost of price

A price to pay to buy another day

Time runs out as the sun sets away

Show what you are and become what you are not

Childish tales and wants

For ask what you seek and you shall not recieve it

Seek what you do not ask and you shall recieve it

A world of chaos and emptiness

A dreaded heart and weariness

The price to live and learn another day ticks away

The empty darkness that you steer away as you live day by day

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